An open letter to "that person"

I don’t know how to reply on this e-mail. I don’t know if I should just say thank you (by the way your the 1st one to remember my b-day except for my relatives) or finally let out all those questions, doubts, answers and more questions (from those answers) that have been accumulated in my mind for more than a year. I attempted to tell you this (by e-mail) several times but I guess I never gained the courage (or maybe I convinced myself that it’s not necessary) to do it. Even as I write this, I still do not have what it takes to tell you those things due to reasons I want to conceal for now. I’m not certain if that day (when I have what it takes) will come but if it does…

And I also want to say sorry because I do not always greet you.

Thank you and I really hope that I will still be around.

Mitchelle

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**It’s ironic—the way we cringe at the thought of boring a tiny hole in our skin when we never have considered thinking twice before trashing our lives away.

***Living has always been a battle against self-destruction.

(angel - Peyups: Wrist Slasher)